Unbearable Pain: My Struggle Against the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a overcast Monday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sharp pain erupted behind my one eye. It was followed by rapid jolts, similar to lightning bolts. As each class progressed, the discomfort subsided and then came back with greater intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took paracetamol, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that autumn, and again in the spring, soon establishing an yearly cycle. The autumn months were the most severe, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-on pain in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP finally referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

This condition often start with intense pain around a single eye that lasts up to several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and men are more often affected. Cluster headaches typically start with abrupt, severe agony focused on one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal bouts; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of extended symptom-free periods.

What connects patients is the intensity. One research paper scored the pain at 9.7 out of 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate discovered 64% of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts during bouts; the number fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to many causes, made things worse. After having sherry at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often interpreted her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.

Nevertheless, the failure to plan daily activities around unpredictable pain took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented across the ages. “The first description of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a publication on the topic. They attributed the disease to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Ancient medical records propose unusual treatments for what some experts would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was recognised as a distinct disorder, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and vanishing each day at specific hours”.

The disorder were only officially classified by global medical societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel that supplies blood to the head. Leading experts in treating the disorder note this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the results of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a major medical publication, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.

Despite such progress, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four operations before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor researched his complaints.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” one says. He proceeds by ruling out other common headache conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A thorough history is essential: on which side do signs occur? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain features such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be referred to specialist centers. But a lot of first go to emergency rooms or are given inadequate treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She thinks dentists still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. I remember calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a calm advisor talked me through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack passed.

Official guidance on management recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug administered by injection. No tablets or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which apparently helps manage the attacks of well-known people.

But leading specialists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Short bouts with occasional episodes are managed with acute treatment only. Longer or more severe periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the area of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.

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Meredith Martinez
Meredith Martinez

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